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2 March 2004 | Vol. 4, No. 1

Meditations in the Garden of the Blind (with Whitman's Specimen Days)

Be with me, Whitman, maker of catalogues:

For the world invades me again.

                                             —T. Roethke



There is an end

                             to the mountains.


                                            *


The rain subtracts

                             from the landscape

              the light it needs to become whole.


                                            *


There is an end

                             to the creek of wild bees.


                                            *


Trees I am familiar with here: Oaks, (many kinds) Cedars, plenty

Tulip trees, (Liriodendron, best rais'd from seeds, the lumberman

call it yellow poplar)                          Gum-trees, both sweet and sour


Beeches                            Black-walnuts                                   the Elm


The corn, stack'd in its cone-shaped stacks, russet-color'd and sere

The distant scream of a flock of guinea-hens with pensive cadence

through the tree tops                          The harsh cawing of many crows

a hundred rods away


                                            *


With each rain, something is taken from us.

                             Night is familiar when it comes,

and it does, of course, as it should.


                                            *


The city's long-standing grudge

                             gets in the way of the sky,

and I can't do this anymore, not again,

                             another night walking these wet streets.


                                            *


Like the Dutch peasants' laughter

              when they saw Brueghal's pig

running through the muddy fields


                             with a knife in its ribs.


The pig, stumbling along,

              reveals the simple nature

of rain, its present tense


becoming past so easily

              on the tip of its nose,

the initials carved into the knife's handle

              worn into one blurred letter

                             from so much use.


                                            *


                             C for the clavicle the prostitutes scratch


C for the chorizo scraped from the floor


              C for the hollowed-out carcasses swimming the eaves


                             C for chosen, cholera, concubine, coxswain


                                            *


Let me give the names of some of these perennial blossoms

and friendly weeds I have made acquaintance with hereabout

one season or another on my walks:


wild azalea,
wild honeysuckle,
wild roses,
golden rod,
larkspur,
early crocus,
sweet flag, (great patches of it,)
creeper, trumpet flower,
scented marjoram,
snakeroot,
Solomon's seal,
sweet balm,
mint, (great plenty,)
wild geranium,
wild heliotrope,
burdock,
dandelions,
yarrow,
coreopsis,
wild pea,
woodbine,
elderberry
poke-weed
sun-flower
chamomile,
violets,
clematis,
bloodroot,
swamp magnolia
milk-weed,
wild daisy, (plenty,)
wild chrysanthemum.

                                            *


There is nothing inside us

                             that does not tremble,

not out of fear, but of necessity:

                             the heart's violet rambling:

              the cloth of ribs, white and wide.


                                            *


You would think we would be used to it by now,

                             the rain stealing the light,

the whores in galoshes

                             waiting for the slaughterhouse to close,


waiting for the same old blood

                             to gather, dusk-scented, in creases of linen skin,

a steady rain, dark and thick and warm...

the melancholy, draperied night above, around...


                             The truth is, everyone thinks they know rain.

But there is nothing intimate about it.

                             Nothing secretive, disembodied.


                                            *


In the silence, shadow and delicious odor of the hour,

(the natural perfume belonging to the night alone,)

I thought it rare music...I could make out the bobolink, tanager,

Wilson's thrush, white-crown'd sparrow and occasionally

from high in the air came the notes of the plover...


                                            *


A table under the willows

                                            overcast


pale light in the leaves

                                            a child playing a crude xylophone


Mary had a little lamb

                                            sky of grace         sky of fleece


                                            The willows curtain the creek like a stage

washed green and hovering


                                            rain-damped bark

autumn beginning in the air


                                            in the brailled lung of wood

the crows moving closer


                                            *


I would fall into this world if I could,

                             and let this final rain soak me through


and for a moment believe that it will be all right.

                              I'll walk and end up in the garden of the blind


with a woman standing in the corn stacks

                             folding a blanket, nightgown or blouse on,


I can't tell, her empty eye-sockets cabbage and moths.

                             She's thinking about the rain, too,


              and beautifully.


                                            *


I hearby dedicate the last half of these Specimen Days to the


bees,
black-birds,
dragon-flies,
pond-turtles,
mulleins, tansy, peppermint,
moths, (great and little, some
              splendid fellows,)
glow-worms, (swarming millions
              of them indescribably
              strange and beautiful at
              night over the pond and
              creek,)
water snakes,
crows,
millers,
mosquitoes,
butterflies,
wasps and hornets,
cat birds, (and all other birds)
cedars,
tulip-trees (and all other trees)
and to the spots and memories
of those days, and of the creek.

                                            *


There would be a silence in the rain and the streets

                             that I would recognize as clarity, or morning,


as I guess it's supposed to happen,

                             wanting so horribly to reach the point where


we no longer tremble under the night's breast,

                             and the trembling's not the worst of it.


                                            *


Couldn't there be an easier way to live here

              in the rain, in the last, completest, highest beauty?


Tell me: can't a foot against a slender leg

                             in the early white morning


bring us enough satisfaction to stay there under the sheets

              as long as possible,


our hearts blundering forward,


sleep-filled and buoyant,

                             knowing that each eyelid's somber undulation,


each parting tremulous lip,

              is what is pushing us along,

                             away from each other,


from this world, our silent world?


                                            *


Buckthorn, white birch, woodland sunflower, beaked hazel...

So, winter is coming; and I yet in my sickness...


Jupiter, setting in the west,

looks like a huge hap-hazard splash,

and has a little star for companion...


                                            *


So, hand me each raindrop's crippled bellow

              and I will carry their voices


where the fireflies gather softly

                             under the magnolias


Hand me the white of the rain

              and I will sleep in it


and there will be nothing in the sky


                              (not one thing at all)

About the author:

Recently, Joshua Poteat has won awards from Poetry Society of America/National Chapbook Award, Catskill Writing Workshop, American Literary Review, Nebraska Review, River City, Universities West Press, Vermont Studio Center, San Francisco State University/American Poetry Archives, and was featured in Vol. 2 no. 1 of Blackbird: an online journal of literature and the arts. His work is also part of the international traveling exhibition Pivot Points, which features three interconnected generations of painters and poets. Upcoming work will appear in Crazyhorse. Joshua lives in Richmond, Virginia, where he edits assorted texts, including art criticism in collaboration with the art historian Dr. Robert Hobbs. He is available for any of your freelance editing/proofreading needs.

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